Sheep: Today a group of us went to Creator Lake, just as we were leaving Eugene on I-5 we passed a rock query. As we passed, I looked up and saw a white four legged animal way at the top, standing on some jagged boulders and it looked pretty stuck. My heart got a little sad, and I hoped that it would find it's way out. Seven hours later, on the way back home, I made sure to look and see if the sheep was still there (I'm assuming it was a sheep) and sure enough, it was. The little white sheep maybe moved 20 yards....and I'm not sure in the right direction. This sight absolutely broke my heart (to many of you that may be weird, or even insane-but my heart seems to be deeply connected to animals) It bothered my so much, that after we got home, I was taking a shower to relax my muscles and I completely broke down-crying...shaking...bottom lip out....the whole thing. I just felt so helpless for this pour innocent sheep that found itself in a bad spot, stuck, alone, not knowing how it may of wondered there, it was separated from it's pack, I'm sure it felt scared and alone. (I'm sure sheep have feeling) I prayed the Lord would spare it's life and that it would return safely to it's sheep family! (silly prayer?) But I saw myself in that lonely sheep. Only moving a little even though much time has passed, unsure of my steps, not knowing the terrain I find myself in and seemingly the only way for my survival is for help of others, someone to rescue me, and for payers to be answered. Maybe that is why this little sheep touched my heart so much, but in all honestly...I really do hope it makes it safely back to where it needs to be!! (Also, I may be calling the rock query tomorrow)
Shell: All this is coming after a week or so of not feeling.....I dunno....really "me". I have been feeling like a "shell", just going through motions of life but not having much "life" in me. Let me clarify here, because I don't want you to get the wrong impression. I'm not feeling sad, I haven't lost hope, nothing like that. In fact have had many times of laughter and smiles this past week, but it's still this "shell" feeling....it's hard to explain. I think it's a void that is creeping into my heart. A void of missing and longing for that deep relationship with my Savior. With the sickness and exhaustion I haven't spent much time in His word and honestly even in prayer (real prayer...at least) And I sure some of these feeling are the chemo too, but it's just been kind of a drag. I was reminded from a good friend, that "your friends will hold you up in prayer when you can't" So thank you everyone for lifting me up!! This morning I got back in the Word, and of course it was just what I needed to hear...love that...Love Him!!
Snow: Today a group of us went on an amazing snowshoe hike around Crater Lake!!! It was about a mile hike, lead by a Park Ranger, we took multiple break where he explained about the National Park. It was so neat!! I was a little nervous going into the hike, but I totally kicked butt, all the breaks really helped me sustain my energy. I'm sure I wont be able to walk tomorrow, but I did it, I went out there and had an adventure with people I love, made memories and will always remember it!
What I've learned.....
1. I'm capable of great adventures if I believe I can do them.
2. Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God-Matthew 4:4
3. It's good to take time for me-self care!!
Please enjoy these photos too :)
Snow Strong!
Basking in His Glory!
My Love!
Putting finishing touches to our place. Bryher was really into the laser level.
I mean REALLY into the laser level.
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