Ryan and I enjoyed a beautiful drive out on back roads to Alsea Falls (out side of Monroe, for my fellow Oregonians) We hiked....almost to the falls, but more about that later. After we got back, I got all fancied up for a date at one of our favorite restaurants (Cafe 440) to enjoy happy hour. Then ended the evening with friends at a movie. Today was also pretty normal, after church went to the dog park then played 9 holes of disc golf. I'm glad I am able to do all of these things-and want to continue enjoying life, activities, and friends when I do feel good!
Back to the hike, between family visiting, Ryan's trip, and our own pride, Ryan and I haven't had much time to process together since chemo started. Ryan was away on a business trip last week, and the time apart really got to us. I take for granted the everyday interactions I have with him, the laughs, the hugs, and the processing. That is what I really want to talk about, our process on this journey...together. I realized how the little misunderstanding, misread emotions, unspoken questions, and hidden attitudes can really build up if you don't take time to process through them when they arise. So back to us not yet processing together, there was somewhat of built up "stuff" that we needed to get out in the open ....now I wasn't sure when this would happen...but I didn't expect it all to get unwrapped and out in the open (literally) on our Alsea Falls hike, in the middle of the trail-in the middle of the forest-in the middle of no where, but that is exactly what happened. I'm thankful that Ryan is stubborn sometimes-for it was his persistence on having this discussion take place in that exact place and moment, that also lead us to a hug and kiss so passionate that it was only fitting that we were in the most serine place-alone-in the middle of know where.
We are both trying to do this together, but what does that even mean? I mean really....I feel like we try so hard to know the right thing to say or do, that we end up loosing each other, trying too hard to figure this thing out on our own. I pray we take it easy with each other, have grace and mercy with each other, and choose to love each other each day. Moments like this I am reminded of our vows, and realize you have to choose to live those words out in the good days and bad. I'm so thankful for my union with Ryan, as I know The Lord is doing mighty work in both of us.
Enough of the sappy stuff, lets talk medical!! I had a check-up with Dr. Lee, to let him know how the first chemo session went. I let him know all the sideeffects and he was glad for this first round they were not so bad. However for the following rounds, I shouldn't expect the same results for all six rounds (my body having minimal side-effects). He also expressed concern with how much I was bleeding (I didn't include this side-effect in my previous blog, but I guess it's all out in the open now) He wanted me to follow up with Dr. Garrett the next day for an exam. Dr. Garrett, said the bleeding was not internal, which is good. (They were thinking maybe the tumor was bleeding) She even thought my tumor looked a little smaller even from the ultra sound she did. I'll visit her again on the 31st to see if my bleeding has lessened. One of the reasons why I'm so anxious to figure this out, is because I really want to switch my blood thinner meds from an injection 2x day to a pill once a day, but they need to figure out this bleeding thing first. Also I got my next chemo infusion scheduled for April 3rd. I'll have family back in town for that, as that is also the same weekend Ryan and I are moving. Don't worry we have plenty of help :) I'll just be doing a lot of finger pointing and saying "this goes there" and "hang that here". It will be.....a new experience.
What I've learned.....
1. Be thankful.
2. Be humble.
3. Be kind.
PS. My dogs are still the best!
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